Did I tell you guys…
I’m giving a speech on how racism has affected me tomorrow. I’m terrified because I’ve been recommended by bosses who are big hot shots at the college and I don’t want to embarrass them. Anyway. So I’m practicing the speech and it’s missing something.
I’m going to come from the perspective of sorts(racism from the outside in). I can’t go too deep cuz its only supposed to be for 2-4 minutes. If only God had given me the talent of writing a poem. I would have done that and scratched this mess.
So anyway,yeah. My speech is titled Racism from the Outside in. The experiences of a black African facing race in America.
ive never been through so much stress
I think i have trust issues. cuz I never had that one teacher or counselor in school who took me under their wing and im getting a glimpse of that now and it’s freaking me out. im so used to having to tackle things on my own, not relying on anyone and now i kind of have to. like my future is based on what others think of me or are willing to do for me and thats unnerving. Im feeling my anxiety ycreep back and its just freaking me out. not to mention im giving a speech on friday at the recommendation of my bosses here at the college and im gonna let them down and embarass them. im getting really anxious and my head is hurting and my chest hurts. this sucks.